The Positive Moment

Eversince the age of 16, I pretty much lived a very independent life. I worked while in college, had the greatest time of my life with awesome friends, partied like an animal, travelled extensively from South to North coast of United States, West to East coast of both United states and my former country Philippines, see the world as much as I can,  got married, finished college with a good profession as a nurse, walked out of marriage which was not meant to last, met the greatest man I prayed so hard from the Lord above to be my best friend and my better half... and now, We're pregnant!

 
Somewhere along the line, the party has to stop, right? I decided to be a mother and build a wonderful family of my own and cherish every moment of it with the man I sorely adore and love with his 9 y.o son whom I claim as my own and live a simple, quiet life here in the heart of the country side, with our animals here in our farm and fresh scent of the back woods.

So, this is it!
It is a very gloomy afternoon this day of August 14th, and my adrenaline is telling me to hurry and get my butt to the restroom and get the pregnancy test over with due to a consistent demand of few friends who knows I might be with a child.
Im sitting on this toilet bowl staring blankly on the box of FirstResponse pregnancy test and not knowing what Im feeling in the heat of the moment. It's now or never.. and the gushing sound of freshly voided urine is streaming to the bowl as I let the strip soak in for 5 seconds. With my eyes close, I gently put the pregnancy strip on the side of the bath tub and prayed silently to God "Please let it be positive Lord, Please, Please." That was the longest 3 minutes of my life. Then Kabam! I saw two lines which conquer that I am pregnant. My face feels hot, while still sitting on the toilet bowl, and I have this awesome feeling of "UGH!" in my heart being pushed to my brain telling me "Im going to be a mother!" I finally found the courage to call Austin, my love; to come and see. As usual, he's a slow cooker!  I stood up and show him the PT, and... "crickets. crickets. crickets. " I don't know exactly how I ended up on his arms and feeling his warm kiss on my forehead, and his comforting hug that words need not to be uttered, making me feel so safe and taken care off. Already.

It's amazing how life can turn out the least you expected it. I can't believe I am pregnant with a man whom been wanting to get to know me since I met him two years ago in a party which I never noticed he was there, I can't believe I've met him couple of times without recollecting he was there but he remembers every clothing I wore each time, I can't believe that fate waited for me to become emotionally, mentally, and legally ready to met the man of my life... and only if you knew how we actually started to exchanging messages with each other, you'll be like, WOW! what a love story!

I can't thank the Lord above for bringing my life into great perspective. I didn't know a woman could feel so selfless like I feel  through the presence of another human being growing inside me, and also for having an son who's acts and gestures, and likes on so many things were like coming from my own genes.

As the months progresses, I will be sharing my wonderful journey to motherwood with you all.
Keep in touch and We'll chat later.

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